My work, consciously & unconsciously, relates back to myself. I often reflect on my past, so exploring early childhood was an inviting challenge in familiar territory. I explore nostalgia, but that nostalgia is always tinged with suffering & sadness. None of the memories I selected are stereotypical or “happy” memories; many substantially differ from standard childhood narratives. These four moments have stayed with me because of the trauma I associate with them. Recreating them has allowed me to relive them, & fixate on their trauma even more. Unfortunately, I love feeling bad about myself.
Each memory has been reconstructed in camera so that the viewer may experience the scene unfolding in front of them just as I remember them – through my eyes, my perspective.